June 1st, 2009

Vesperia - the unknown

did our laughter, did our tears have some purpose afterall?

I've made a lot of friends... hi all you. I hope you enjoy my posts. :3 *waves* It's so nice to have friends.

I should open with something nice, hmm?

I'm very much into synthpop recently. It's so addicting, oh god.

I see you sometimes
as you sail the sky
you seem to be much closer now
the soothing voice of your heart
comforts me
it takes me away
from all this misery

under the sea of stars
maneuvering your ship of dreams
seeking everlasting joy
as you
remove all your scars...

a glimmer of hope
in our hearts and minds
contemplating who you are
the soothing voice of your heart
comforts me
It takes me away
from all this misery


*sighs happily*

So yeah, how about a real post nao? Shit's been going down for the past couple of days since I got back.

Let's see...

My sister got rushed to the ER a couple nights ago (didn't come home until sometime after midnight), and they couldn't find what was wrong with her. The shitass doctors were all OF COURSE WE HAVE TO TEST HER FOR MENINGITIS AND NOTHING ELSE NOPE BECAUSE LOOK, THESE SPOTS ALL OVER HER FACE MUUUUST MEAN SHE HAS MENINGITIS. Fuck that shit, it could be a multitude of things (RMSF anyone?). So yeah they just tested her for that, and that was it. Discharged and still no diagnosis nor conclusive results. Wtf. They refused to think it was from a tick, and did not do any sort of testing. Fuck that shit. I work in a lab, if I was there with her at the ER i'd bitch that lazy doctor(s) out. God, do you job right. What was it again? THOU SHALL DO NO HARM, right? hah.

Then she got almost deathly sick again TODAY, throat closed up and even had paralysis in one leg. Oh, she's 16 by the by. Wtf. Had severe chills, couldn't swallow anything / medicine / drink. Poor thing. She's recovering now though, because they did manage to find she had Strep...which is probably unrelated to the THING in the first paragraph.

Yep, I still hate doctors. Do your job right and stop being lazy. And yes I know what I'm talking about, I work at a hospital and deal with this crap quite often. Speaking of which...

WORK RELATED...
My boss at the lab is leaving June 5th...that startled me, because I didn't think she'd leave. I thought she would be here for a long time. :O She's quite young though. I'm STILL in for my annual review that she has yet to write for me (like, 4 months late). Bah. I should be getting it soon, along with my raise. (: Yay moneys.

I has a new Clinical Lab Science buddy! For reelz! Her name is Ann and we're biffles. Okay, I wish. ANYWAY, she's such a big, cute dork. *pinch* (: TEE HEE. We talk and get so carried away, and sometimes I don't even notice until it's like, a half hour passed... oops. But I like talking to her. She may be taking a class with me next fall. *crosses fingers* ^___^

Hmmm...what else? I feel like I've been drawn closer into some sort of feasible identity hither or thither. No, I'm being vague on purpose. I'm happy with where I am now though. I like myself (like I usually do). (: I just wish my mother was here to see it, to see how I've grown.

Ah! I apparently found my twin, only in male form. (He'd punch me if he read that, heh). It's SO SURREAL how we both are similar in thinking capabilities/mind capacity. It's... odd, I can't really explain it well enough but he pretty much thinks like I do. XD He may be coming to hang out on this weekend depending on my schedule. He found my SN through the Anime Boston forums... >_>;;;

FANDOM durrr

I've been slowly starting up working on cosplay again. I'm finishing up my Saphir. :Db Pictures may come at a later date. I'm currently working on his jacket. Already have his shorts, lawl. Oh expect a 4koma later about his shorts...hahahaha, zwanhyrule already has an idea what that's going to be about. XD

ODDITIES

My ps2 died recently. YES he one I just bought last summer. wtf. So I'm both PS2-less AND XBOX-less. Actually, speaking of which, my XBOX is coming to me tomorooowwwwww! <3 I just hope I'm there when the UPS man delivers, lawl.

Anything else?
Well.
I've been feeling awfully poetic lately. Waxing poetically. Mmm...

I guess I should close with something cryptic now. This is vaguely referencing to Jade and Dist as kids, and how they grew up and ultimately grew apart from each other because of that one fateful event...

did we toil in vain in hope
that wisdom came from what we'd done?

even lands we once called home
lie undiscovered and unknown
only heaven's silence for an answer...

are these not words of heresy?
a venom on my lips, a poison?
my spirit impurified
in everything I choose to say

if i would shed my skin, the layers left
but not the lessons learned
it would not undo what I have done
or grant forgiveness in some better days.
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