OKAY, OKAY, GET THIS...

First off, GOOD NEWS:
noetma can go with me to Anime Boston! FUCK YES I HAVE MY JADE! HAHA that makes me so unbelievably happy! >8D Just when I decided to get off mah tush and finally start to work on my jacket mock up! Mwahaha! ALL THE MORE REASON TO FINISH MAH COSPLAYS!

BAD NEWS:
...My tumor they excised grew back to the original size, if not larger now. FuckfuckFUCK. These types of tumors aren't suppsoed to grow so DAMN FAST! ARGH!!! It's FRUSTRATING! It's been less than a month since my surgery. What the EFF?! Ugh.

I'm sorry but I've been feeling like complete shit for a couple days now after finding it grew back...uggghh. That's why I didn't start working on the cosplay, either. I just don't feel well mentally. -___-;;; Maybe it's just me but there's more pressure in that area now, too. Ugh.

I accidentally fell on my back (...the floor was slippery and I was goofing off with my sister, shaddap;;) and the area where the tumor is HURT LIKE HELL. >-o;;; AUGH. I remember how I could rebound from a fall JUST like that! *finger snap* BLAH. So um... IS THIS THE END OF MY PLAYFULNESS/AGILENESS/ME BEING A DORK IN GENERAL? D8;;;;;... N-now I can't be my crazy hyper self with a tumor... ughhhh. I'M SLOWLY DYING INSIDE, I ASSURE YOU, MY SPIRIT'S WILTING. MY SOUL'S CRYING OUT FOR MERCY, DAMN IT, CUT ME SOME SLACK...SOMEBODY...;;; And I'm sitting here, wondering why the surgeon didn't excise all of it. A good guess is because it is so close to my spine, a nerve cord may be in the way...UGHHH FUCK. I REALLY DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT SEVERING THAT BY ACCIDENT OR ON PURPOSE. *cringe* I just wanna be normal again, damn it.

...

TO END WITH, GOOD NEWS:
I ... yes, I finally started on a mock up for my Dist jacket and it's coming along swimmingly. However there's SOOO many things that need cilpping/adjustments/to use lining or not lining, that is the question /etc. I'm excited. 8) I just have the sleeves to basically do which I'll do tomorrow, mooooo. Then from there I can actually start the REAL jacket. Pics to come later?;; XD

OH YEAH DUR I ALMOST FORGOT:
GUYS, I NEED YOUR FONIC VISION CRITICAL EYE WITH THIS ONE!
I'm in the middle of making Dist's badge, yes, see a screen cap of it here. But ...I'M UNSURE OF THE WRITING IN RED ON HIS BADGE, ABOVE THE BAR CODE. WHAT COULD IT BEEEE. I know it's not numbers, dur. "Doctor Neis"? Maybe. It's too short to be "Dist the Rose" or "Dist the Reaper." It does look like a laboratory badge of somesort so Doctor might be my best bet. Mrrrhrhrmhrhrhmmr. I can just use an artistic license...and make up whatever I want. xD *just trying to stimulate fan response for those remaining distoids* :O

*explodey*

MY APOLOGIES, GUYS. I was going to update with the rest of the Anime Boston stuff last week but everything kind of scattered and whatnot. Here is the rest of the AB photos & videos brought to you by facklemuffin. Bwahah. It's complete awesomosity!

( Art dump and yup, you guessed it--involving mostly Dist and GAY )

Now for facklemuffin's pieces. ( Xenosaga and Abyss omake )

( Oh yeah my fave photo from Anime Boston, I believe. xD )

OK boring personal stuff goez here:
-(do not read; i'll make your (proverbial) ears bleed) I'm not sure how I'm going to break the news to my pops. We really don't talk at all about, uh, dating and stuff, nevertheless homosexual content. Ah. In the past I've learned (more than once) my family is incredibly anti-gay. Argh. -_- So I don't really know if I should tell him. He is old (fashioned, too) anyway...it might just add moar stress to him. It's so hard to get points across regarding stuff he will NOT listen about...blah. Stubborn dad is stubborn. For now, I'll keep stuff on the DL...OTL

-My italian teacher put me on the spot during class to announce that I was nominated for an 'excellence in italian' senior award. Uwah. @_@;; Also, uh, word spreads quick apparently because my other teachers congratulated me, too. Okay. Whatevs.

-Eastern Civilization class: Our Zen Garden project won a grant!! 2400! Woot! Seven high schools won out of like...34ish total. I'm so happy about this! I can't wait to get started on it!!! >:D

-UHHH I PLANTED MIMOSA. AND I MOVED MY CACTI + RUBBER TREE OUTSIDE NAO. GO ME.

-Eastern Civ 2: Chinatown trip is tomorrow! I need to clean out my purse. I was thinking I'd rather not bring my purse... argh. I'm conflicted between leaving it and just bringing a couple things, or bringing the everything. Blahh.

-Reading the play Faust by Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe in my spare time (hah)... hmm. It's an all right story so far (Faust is so craaazy) though I can't make a real opinion until I finish. The only thing I don't like is the fact that it's like, drenched in religious junk. Blargh. Ah well, sets the tone for story. D|

-Exams are coming soooooooooooooooon. >w< So is prom. Blah. -___-

uhh I'll end this with some lyrics 8)

Nothing's quite the same now
I just say your name now

But it's not so bad
You're only the best I ever had
You don't want me back
You're just the best I ever had

So you stole my world
Now I'm just a phony
Remembering the girl
Leaves me down and lonely

And it may take some time to
Patch me up inside
But I can't take it so I
Run away and hide
And I may find in time that
You were always right
You're always right

So you sailed away
Into a gray sky morning
Now I'm here to stay
Love can be so boring

What was it you wanted
Could it be I'm haunted

P.S. Sorry I missed your call, Yumee. I didn't check mai phone until nao...and it's 11:30. Argh. I'm sorrrrrrrrry. ;_;

for all you death note fans:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GXTGiEyavrA

dsfjsdhjdf
WHYYYY ARE THEY SO AMAAAZING haha
too bad the stupid AV people messed up which track to play at the beginning D:< blah
but yeah, good times! ♥

1) I'm sorry, I kind of overreacted. I mean, I'm still upset over what I said in my last post, but... hay... things like these happen all the time, I suppose. -_- Ugh. No use holding any grudges. Righ'? >-> Now if you guys will forgive me going crazypsycho (but I'm always like that). "No one likes getting lj-yelled at" ... I never thought of it like that. Whoops. So yeah insert apology here.

2) Ah! chibirinoa are you going to this year's Otakon? Someone, honest to Lorelei, some random person IM'd me last night and asked if I would go to Otakon for their Abyss group. I don't think I gave them an honest answer 'cause, well, I'm not sure myself. Anyways, I wanted to know if you, Laura, were going 'cause maybe then we could go together. But that is totally your choice and I don't want to intrude anything (esp. if it's already planned). X_X;;; But anyways---guh? I'm special...? Special enough to get random IMs starting with Dist quotes now? Hehe. Not that I mind it... oh, actually, I think I'd encourage Dist-ANYTHING. 8DDD;;; Anyway, they found me through cosplay.com, which makes sense. Yah. 8D It feels like I'm doing stuff for people, but they aren't doing things for me, now. Is my kindness being used as my weakness? Oh noes. DD8

3) I'm 1/3 done with the painting of my jacket right now. The fumes are kind of getting to me, augh!! I made very small mistake(s) 'cause the painting tape was lifted when I was painting, but hay I guess it's not that visible unless you're like, right in front of me with your face on my jacket LOL. But hey if I really need to, I can fix it with black fabric pain. 8DD

4) If... if the rest of the painting goes well tomorrow, I will celebrate by generously scanning my brand new (I GOT IT THIS MORNING, RAWR♥) Keterburg anthology doujin (so OK according to my subject line, I lied now). IT'S HUGE!!! And money sinking habits? Psh, it was well worth it!! *_* I know which story I will scan ohoho... KETERBURGERS <33333 Oh and of course, it will be f-locked, so it'll be special and such.