Hay guys,

Right now I'm between hacking up a lung and studying my ass off this weekend, something's gotta give.

I'm nervous, very nervous about this semester (as you could tell in my last post). Monday, er, tomorrow, I'm going to talk to my supervisor at work and see if we can work out something feasible, like having Wednesdays off. I know I was hired for M-F and I feel very bad asking for a day off...and I really like my job. Once school is out I'll definitely be working my regular schedule. ^-^ PROBLEM IS, I don't think I have enough time in the week to study. Seriously. All science classes have labs attached to them...which basically is x2 work in each course, hehe.

I'm also thinking about getting a tutor for chemistry so I know wtf I'm doing (this is only if I get a day off from work, otherwise I won't have the time!). Stupid formula. I mean, I took chem in HS but it's nothing like college level. I just don't want to get left behind. :P

Next semester I want to take a lighter course load (science wise) so I don't run into this again. x-x;;; Probably something like...

-Microbiology (definitely interested in taking it ^^)
-Organic Chemistry (there's no way around this, I need a Chemistry every semester; this will be my tough course for the semester so I can take a lot of time studying this in general)
-Gen ed. #1 (History credit?)
-Gen ed. #2 (Language course?)

Notice how I didn't write Physiology... uuugh. That's IF I even pass Anatomy. Guhghggh. That's another pain in the butt. I guess I'll take that my junior year, along with Immunology *CRIPES!* >____>;;;

ANOTHER THING: I am not going to graduate on time. I feel a little less stressed about it now...but... still. I just want good GPA and not have to retake a course AGAIN. Waste of time, just need to get it right the first semester. x-x;;;

And I'm trying. So hard. To live my life with all these stoopid classes in the way. It's very hard but I know I'll pull through (admist whining and hating myself to taking all this in one semester). u__u I even made a schedule of what to study/work on during the days of the week. I hope I fall into routine soon 'cause everything is hectic right now....and hectic isn't good! D8

I think I'll be able to play Vesperia and not hate myself for it, during school time. Just on the weekend though, for like, an hour... @_@;; ...maybe. Blah. I played a bit yesterday, just got out of the desert and I had to backtrack to Nordapolica again... following Flynn. :3



"IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE SEEN YOU ENJOY ANYTHING THIS MUCH, YURI!" XDDD 'Cause it's with you, Flynn! That's why! YURI X FLYNN FOR EVER! XD


Also, YURI WHY MUST YOU KEEP *BEEP*ING *BEEP*??? IS THIS GOING TO BECOME A THEME? Hahahaha. Yeah I know the game's theme has to do with your own justice and whatnot.. but...jeeeez! ALSO, SEEING CUMORE COWERING LIKE THAT AND WHINING, OMFG, REMINDS ME OF DIST. HAHAHA. Oh, poor Cumore. I HOPE YOU LIKE SANDWICHES!!! *dies* And NICE FORESHADOWING, ESTELLE. "I'm sure if you point your blade at me, I'd have to have done something, blah blah, excuse." >__> Somehow I think this has more to it. WHO KNOWS. LET'S SEE! ♥



AHEM. Dist glasses anyone? XD Hahaha, ohh man.


Cosplay-wise, I won't do anything until school's out (same as last year). I'm 90% sure I'll be making a Vesperia (Yuri or... if I have enough time, DUKE!!) cosplay for myself, and I need to work on facklemuffin's jacket. Both costumes for next Anime Boston (May 23rd I do believe?) ...so I'll have a little extra time between when Spring semester ends and AB starts to do some odds and ends for the costumes. ^__^



Flynn asking Yuri to "ease up a little" in bed. >-> Yes.


Welp, that's all for now. IF ANYONE READ THAT, PLEASE HOLLA BACK. XD



P.S. Sexy lab coat get! :3!!! PLS IGNORE MY HAIR LOL I just woke up not too soon ago. x-x;; The coat's for my chem class -and- my work. I kind of want to buy another one, too. A longer one for the winter. XDDD OH that's right! Now I can fulfill my dorky original cosplay idea of teenager!Dist, at the lab. Yesssssssss! Though I may need a longer white wig, 'cause I like him with his hair tied back!! ADORABLE!! XD

DEAR LIFE,

First off, I must share a quote from my Anatomy PhD, "All majors have the same difficulty. That's bullshit." I wholeheartedly agree; I don't give a crap if you double major, even. It's all lies unless you're in the tough stuff. Oh yes. The tough stuff...

I hate all these drastic changes. Ugh. I WANT TO REVOLT. School's back and once again my life got flipped upside down. I've no time for videogames, namely Vesperia (which I'm tremendously sad about), and I'm seriously doubting my self right now with this major. The trouble is I don't know if I can do it and GRADUATE ON TIME because I'm working so much... so either I quit my job (which I really don't want to 'cuz I like it!) and study moar, or I have to cut down my classes. I'm trying to do the same thing I did last year: Study my ass off with all the time I have, but it's honestly NOT WORKING BECAUSE GUESS WHAT, the workload's too much. I think I'm going to have to drop a class... probably anatomy (which is more like 2 classes in one, in all honesty)... only because I honestly do not have the time to juggle all these sciences and lab work. Sigh.

I really wish I had more time but there's so much working against me. I commute, that's #1 problem. I waste over 2 hours driving each day to/from the campus (and then factor in 40 mins total to/from work, as well, each day!). I planned on going to the gym after school.... and I can't even do that because that means I'll have to skip lunch and head basically right to work after the gym. I barely have time to run home to eat lunch between school and working evenings! Gah!!! X___x;;;

This weekend I am going to sit down and take time to read over each piece of detail in each syllabi and look over the chapters I need to do. I'll practice some chem because it is very scary. Why? I dislike math... but I had a good chem teacher in HS so I remember these terms...it could be worse. Sigh. And anatomy- I know I can do it- I just can't put in enough time I KNOW I NEED to study. I have other classes to tend with, too... meeeeerghgh. Mind you, I'm doing the best i can w/ studying. Bringing my books into work even, to study on my break (hahaha what was a break again, c'mon tell me??)... I FEEL SO WORN OUT AND IT'S ONLY BEEN THE SECOND DAY. AAAAAAAARGH.

Aaaaand my health's been so shitty lately due to stress. On top of having leftover remnants of being sick (thanks Jon), I have postnasal drip (fucking gross), and I've actually been getting headaches each day now. I try to drink water while on campus (like I usually do) but I think it's stress related. I haven't got headaches like this since high school. Now all I need are "floaters" in my eyes to come back and I'm done for. -_- Urghhhhh.

And studying??? The same as ever. I CAN NEVER, EVER STUDY AT HOME. I have such a loud, noisy, bratty family that can't keep their nose outta my business. If I say I need to study, if I say I'm busy, I mean it. o_o They just think I'm making stuff up when I say I'm busy, they think I mean "I'm lazy." They always call me dumb, too, my little sisters (both of them are horrible students and they're not worrying about college at all). They have no idea...

I really honestly wish I had a place to study. I can drive to the library but that's wasting another 40 mins. I really wish my friend facklemuffin was actually home so I could totally not act like a bum and study at his house. :| That's another thing...I want to move out asap...but I can't until I graduate. Argh. I don't want to be living off paycheck after paycheck. I need time to save up in order to move out. I need to factor in the price of gas, groceries, appliances, everything. I don't want even more stress ONTOP OF COLLEGE SHIZ.

Sigh. I'm sick of this hot weather. I like fall...but I don't like winter. T_T

On a happier note... I got my chem glasses today. They look pretty nifty. :3 Tonight at work, Kent is having Alexander's Uniforms drop by (UNTIL MIDNIGHT, yes!! Thanks for the later hours- it's hard working evening because everything closes before or during my shift!;;). I want to buy a lab coat there and a new set of scrubs because I need a new pair of scrubs...and...I need a coat for my chem class. ^^;;; Sigh...

I hope I don't kill my GPA...T_T but what's more important to me? Graduating on time, or my GPA? I can't have one without the other anyway! Fuuuuck.

How am I going to get through this semester? T_T How...Aaargh.

Oh and on a final note, raine_sage81, I DO have exams before and right after PAC. I told you. It's because my major is so complex and intense, yada yada yada. Lots of things to do, formula to abuse..(I'm sure if Rita read that last one, she'd flip. AW, I miss Vesperia!).

Sigh... off to work in a bit, I'm just trying to relax, trying to let things sink in. Tomorrow I have Anatomy again... and I didn't even finish going over the chapters they're discussing. FUCK. See how busy my life is? -_- I swear, college caters to the stupid brats who live on campus and that only. @_@;;; All they see is $$$. They don't care if you have a job, either. T__T At least none of my exams are in the evenings! So far, anyway. *fingers crossed* I'd hate for them to get in the way of work.

IF YOU READ ALL THAT, CONGRATULATIONS. IF NOT, wow, you're a lazy arse. :)