Dist-sama's Revenge Diary!
Why I am not a Rose, but a Death God!!
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Welcome to my Revenge Journal, curious one. Read 'em and weep, hahaha! That means you, Jade!
2nd-May-2008 05:08 am - Surgery this morning...
soubi - pedo licky
...Scheduled at 10:45. Can't sleep. Can't eat or drink, either. Mrrr...

I feel weird.

Boy, I hope I don't panic last minute when they put the IV in me. T_T I really don't want to think about being passed out while being worked on, either. Ugh. Must have the will and courage to press on.

Even if it drains all my money.
Even if it means permanent nerve damage.
Even if it means losing the tooth all along.
Even if it means laughing my head off in pain afterwards.
Even if it means being nauseous to high hell from the nitrous oxide.
Even if it means being so incredibly groggy afterwards.

I gotta do it.
I gotta ...

:(
4th-Nov-2007 06:32 pm - I've been dealing with this for all my life.
soubi - pedo licky
You make me so damn nervous. You and your nasty habits. I worry for you but you don't care. You're as stubborn as stubborn can get. It is a sad thing, this predicament. You use any excuse you can get to do it. I know how this is going to end, I know it but I CAN'T STOP IT. It's in your reach, not mine. I hate being so useless in that sense. Perhaps you just don't care in general. I would never know, I'm not you and I haven't been around as long as you have. :(

Ignore this, just me attempting to vent...
25th-May-2007 02:14 pm - rock bottom
Dist OTL
OKAYYYY WHOO ADRENALINE RUSHHH I FEEL LIKE SHIT TODAY YAAAAY I JUST YELLED AT MY DAD FOR CRITICIZING ME WHEE MY LIFE IS SO PATHETIC WHY CANT I GET ANYWHERE

HERE'S A NUTSHELL )

I feel so helpless right now. I can't do anything. I can't work on things I like (ex: cosplay, drawing, etc) because I HAVE NO FUCKING MONEY FOR SUPPLIES. I can't even fucking buy clothes (I don't buy a lot of clothes to begin with! The last time I went shopping was at the beginning of the school year)! I was actually criticized today for wearing JEANS when it's so damn hot out (I OWN NO SHORTS...AND NOW MY PAJAMAS WENT MISSING. Stop touching my laundry, people! D8<)! UGH. Not to mention that I can't even fucking hang out with my friends anymore. No money, no ride. Nothing. I HATE DEPENDING ON PEOPLE. I HATE IT.

I feel incredibly shitty. I think I'm gonna go... sleep.

edit okay i called joanns again. shelly said I WASNT FIRED. ill trust her word. i gave her new availability... hm. hopefully ill be able to get some hours!! she said she'll call back tomorrow! ;;
Dist and Jade had hawt angrysex on Jul 7th 2008, 8:36 am GMT!